One of the things I've struggled with in this new season is anxiety. Fear about tomorrow. Worrying about being enough, providing enough, being able to do enough by myself.
Jesus's words in Matthew bring me much comfort. "Do not be anxious... Your Heavenly Father knows you need all these things..."
I've rested in those words, prayed over those passages and recited them to the boys too many times to count.
Today was a perfect example of the Lord providing.
It was time to have a garage sale. I now realize garage sales need to be much more than just me making money. I want to bless the person that walks up. I want to help them, strike up a conversation if they are open to one, get to know them on a simple level.
My sweet neighbors (and may I say, the immediate neighbors around us are invalid and elderly yet have constantly told me to knock on their door if I need something) brought some things over for our garage sale.
They were decluttering, I was setting up - perfection!
While I'm holding the sale, my neighbor strikes up a conversation with a random man who pulls up on his motorcycle. Out of the corner of my eye, I see Ron turn and point to me but don't think much of it.
The man drives away.
Fifteen minutes later, he pull back up and asks me if I have a moment.
I walk up to him and he hands me a gift card to Kroger.
He tells me he knows what it's like to have a difficult time and he wanted to gift me so I could take care of my babies.
Blessed beyond belief, more so that the Lord has shown over and over how he works through perfect strangers.
As this day approached to have the garage sale, I asked God that he would give just what we needed. It was necessary as there was a mix-up on our insurance and we ended up owing for the entire month of November - and since we didn't know we were covered, we have been paying for everything out of pocket.
Which - if you hold private insurance, it ain't cheap. More so when your husband will be going to a "war zone" and has to have coverage over there.
All that to say, I trusted the Lord to perfectly provide what we would need since we would be stretching the dollars until next payday.
Suffice to say, he did. In very unexpected ways. Above and beyond.
This living by faith might not be easiest, but I've found it's best. It's when you see Him show up.
It's the moment when you realize, He knows.
He always has.
